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- Avt’handil’s Request
to King Rostevan, and the Vizier
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- 726
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- WHEN day dawned the knight arrayed himself and went
- forth early. He says: "I would that my love be not revealed.
- that I may conceal it!" For patience he prays: "Contrive
- something for my heart!" The moon-like one mounted his
- horse; he went to the house of the vizier.
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- 727
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- THE vizier heard of it, went to meet him: "The sun is
- risen upon my house; this day, meseems, a presentiment of
- joy announced to me this good news." He met Avt'handil,
- saluted him, respectfully addressed to the perfect one
- perfect praise. A welcome guest should have a cheerful
- host.
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- 728
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- THIS host, not listless, ill-disposed or idle, helped the
- knight to dismount; they stretched on the floor under his
- feet a Cathayan rug. The knight illumined the house as the
- sun's beam the universe. They said: "To-day the western
- gale has wafted us the fragrant odour of roses."
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- 729
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- HE sat; they that looked on him truly maddened their
- hearts. They who gazed on him accounted it an honour to
- swoon for his sake; many sighs were uttered, not once but
- a thousand times; they were ordered to depart, they went
- away, the household was thinned out.
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- 730
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- WHEN the household was gone, the knight addressed the
- vizier; quoth he: "In the council chamber nought will ever
- be hidden from thee; in every matter of state the king does
- what thou desirest, and agrees with thee. Now hearken to
- my woes; cure me with what will heal me.
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- 731
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- "THE fire of yon knight burns me, the flame that consumes
- him afflicts me; I am slain by longing and by not seeing
- the object of my desire; he would not grudge his life for me;
- what is due must be paid; one must love a generous
- ungrudging friend.
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- 732
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- "THE sight of him caught my heart as in a net, therein
- it stays; my patience, too, remains with him; in that he
- burns those near him. God created him indeed a sun.
- Moreover, Asmat'h is become a sister to me, more than
- a born sister.
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- 733
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- "WHEN I departed 1 swore with a fearful oath: 'I shall come
- again, I shall see thee not with a face despised of foes;
- thou art of darkened heart, I shall seek light for thee.'
- It is time for me to go, therefore am I burned with hot fire.
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- 734
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- "ALL this I tell thee truly, not with braggart speech; he
- awaits me, and I cannot set forth. This it is that adds to the
- hot fires; I cannot break my vow, I mad cannot abandon
- him mad. When and where did ever a breaker of oaths
- prevail ?
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- 735
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- "GO to the palace, report on my behalf to King Rostevan
- what I have told thee. By his head I swear to thee, Vizier
- Ustasra, if he keep me not captive I shall not stay; if he
- keep me captive what can he make of me ? Help me; let
- not the fire hurt and destroy my heart!
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- 736
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- "SAY from me: 'Let every mouth which is not speechless
- praise thee! Let God, the means of light, make known to
- thee how I fear thee. But that knight, an aloe-tree in form,
- burned me with fire; forthwith he took away my heart, in
- no wise could I keep it.
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- 737
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- "'NOW, 0 king, for me existence lacking him is utterly
- impossible; he, the dauntless, has my heart. Of what avail
- am I here ? If I can be of any service to him, to you first
- will the glory belong; if I fail to accomplish aught for him
- I shall set my heart at rest, mine oath will not have been
- broken.
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- 738
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- "'LET not my going anger or grieve your heart. Let that
- befall my head whate'er God wills. May He grant you the
- victory, and send me your servant back to you; but if
- I return not may you still reign, may your foes be
- affrighted.'"
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- 739
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- YET again the sun-faced one says to the vizier: "I have
- shortened my speech. Now speak thus to the king till others
- come in to inform him, pleasantly entreat for me my congee,
- summon up thy courage, and a hundred thousand red pieces
- shall be bestowed on thee as a bribe."
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- 740
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- THE vizier said with a smile: "Keep thy bribe for thyself:
- for me it is sufficient favour from thee that thou hast found
- the road hither. How can I dare tell the king what I have
- now heard from you! I know of a truth he will fill me with
- favours, and gain is not disagreeable!
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- 741
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- "BY his head! he will slay me straightway: I doubt
- whether he will delay even a moment. Thy gold will remain
- with thee, but for me, luckless, there will be earth for a
- grave. Slay me! What is of equal value with life to a man!
- The thing cannot be said and I cannot say it, however much
- anyone should reproach me.
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- 742
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- "THIS road leads to no aim. How can I, luckless, lay down
- my life for thee? He will despoil me or kill me. He will say:
- 'How dost thou speak these words ? Why didst thou not
- guess all there is to be done ? Why art thou such a
- madman ?' Life is better than loot ; this I even now learn.
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- 743
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- "EVEN if the king permit thee to depart, why should the
- hosts also be deceived ? Why should they let thee go, why
- should they be hoodwinked, or why should they be removed
- far from their sun ? If thou depart, our foes will become
- bold, will even themselves with us; but this must not be, as
- sparrows cannot change to hawks."
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- 744
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- THE knight wept; with tears he spoke: "Must I strike
- a knife into my heart! O vizier, it is apparent in thee thou
- knowest not what love is, nor hast thou in others seen
- friendship or oath. Or if thou hast seen surch, how canst thou
- prove that without him my joy is possible?
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- 745
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- "THE sun has turned. I knew not what would make the sun
- turn. Now let us help him; it is better for us, in return he
- will warm our day. No one knows mine affairs like myself;
- what embitters me, what sweetens me. The discourse of
- idle men greatly grieves a man.
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- 746
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- "OF what profit can I be to the king or his hosts since I am
- mad now, and my tears flow unceasingly! It is better that
- I go away; I will not break my word; oaths prove a man.
- What man has borne grief that Tariel has not?
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- 747
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- "Now, o vizier, how can thy cursed heart be calm in this
- juncture! Iron in my place would become wax and vot hard
- rock; I cannot repay his tears, even if Gihon1 flowed
from
- mine eyes. Help me if thou wouldst desire help from me.
- 1 River in Messopotamia
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- 748
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- "IF he give me not leave I shall steal away, unknown shall
- I depart from him; as it intreats me so shall I deliver my
- Heart to be consumed by fire. I know he will do nothing to
- Thee because of me, if he be not disposed to exile thee.
- Promise me-whatever may happen to thee- ‘I shall
- Sacrifice myself to be tortured!’"
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- 749
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- THE vizier said: "Thy fire consumes me also with fire.
- I can no longer look on thy tears, the world itself vanishes;
- sometimes speech is better than silence, sometimes by
- speaking we spoil things. T shall speak; if I die it matters
- not, my life will be sacrificed for thee."
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- 750
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- WHEN the vizier had said this he arose and went to the
- palace. He saw the king arrayed; the sun-like face looked
- straight upon him. He was afraid, he dared not tell him
- unpleasing news; perplexed he stood, he thought not on
- war-like matters.
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- 751
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- THE king saw the vizier struck dumb by sadness. He said:
- "What grieves thee ? What knowest thou ? Why art thou
- come sad?" He answered: "I know nothing at all, but I am
- indeed wretched. You will be justified in slaying me when
- you hear the astounding news.
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- 752
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- "MY mourning neither adds to my grief nor surpasses it;
- I am afraid, though an envoy has no care for fear. Now
- Avt'handil bids thee farewell, he entreats, he wrangles not;
- he says that for him the world and life are nought without
- yon knight."
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- 753
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- WITH timorous tongue he told him all he knew. He added,
- thereafter: "How canst thou know by such words in what
- a plight I saw him and how his tears flowed ? Though you
- should let your wrath fall forthwith on me, you are just."
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- 754
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- WHEN the king had heard this he was wroth, he lost his
- senses, his colour waned and he became terrible, he would
- have terrified onlookers. He cried: "What has made a
- madman of thee ? Who else would have related this ? It is
- the plight of a bad man to learn early what is evil.
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- 755
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- "TRAITOR-LIKE, thou hast told me of this as if it were
- a merry matter; what more could anyone do to me save
- slay me faithlessly, treacherously ? Madman, how couldst
- thou employ thy tongue to dare to speak thus to me now!
- Such a madman as thou art is unworthy to be vizier or
- aught else.
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- 756
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- "SHOULD not a man spare his lord what is irksome, when
- he stupidly chatters stupid speech ? Why were mine ears not
- deafened before hearing such a thing! If I kill thee, my neck
- must bear the responsibility for thy blood!"
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- 757
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- AGAIN he spake: "If thou hadst not now been sent hither
- by him, by my head! I had cut off thy head, let there be no
- doubt of this! Go, withdraw! Look at the mad, stupid,
- desperate improper fellow! Brave word, brave man, brave
- the deed done by him!"
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- 758
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- HE bent down, he threw chairs, he hit the wall and
- shattered them; he missed his aim, but for the vizier's sake
- he made the chairs like diamond, not willow-like. "How
- couldst thou tell me of the going of him who plaited the
- aloe-tree branches!" Hot tears hollowed out channels in the
- vizier's white cheeks.
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- 759
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- THE wretched vizier hurried away; he dared say no more.
- He crept off crestfallen like a fox; his wounded heart pains
- him. He comes in a courtier, he goes out gloomy, so much
- does the tongue dishonour him. A foe cannot hurt a foe
- as a man harms himself.
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- 760
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- HE said: "What more will God show me like unto my
- woes ? Why was I deceived ? Why was I darkened ? Would
- that someone might enlighten me! Whoever announces
- anything so boldly to a sovereign, my evil days stand upon
- him too; how can he ever enjoy peace!"
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- 761
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- THE disgraced vizier went away in black luck. Gloomily,
- sad-faced, he said to Avt'handil: "What thanks can I give
- thee! Thanks to thee, what a courtier am I become! Alas!
- I have lost my peerless self by mine own fault!"
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- 762
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- HE begs the bribe and behaves sportively, albeit his tears
- were not dry. I marvel why he spends his time in making
- jokes, why he is not grieved in heart! Quoth he: "He who
- gives not what he promised quarrels with the Mourav1. It
is
- said: 'A bribe settles matters even in hell.'
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Mourav—the headman of a town.
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- 763
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- "HOW he took the matter, what he said to me, it is not to
- be told by me. What evil, what stupidity, what idiocy, what
- madness he attributed to me! I myself am no longer worthy
- of the name of man; no longer have I sense. At this I
- marvel—why he slew me not; God must have given him
- patience.
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- 764
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- "I KNEW too what I did; it happened not to me by
- mistake. I had pondered, I knew he would be wroth with
- me, therefore is my grief increased. None can avoid
- vengeance for a deed done by Providence. Still, for thy sake
- death seems joy to me; my woes are not in vain."
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- 765
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- THE knight replied: "It is wholly impossible for me not to
- depart. When the rose withers the nightingale then dies;
- he must seek a dewdrop of water, for the sake of this he
- must rove everywhere, and if he cannot find it what will he
- do or wherewith shall he soothe his heart ?
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- 766
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- "WITHOUT him I cannot bear to sit or lie. I will choose
- to roam like the beasts, with them to run. Why does
- Rostevan desire me who am in such a state to fight his
- adversaries! It is better to have no man at all than to have
- a dissatisfied one.
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- 767
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- "I WILL tell him once again; now, however angry the king
- may be, surely he can judge how my heart burns and
- flames. If he grant me not leave, I shall steal away when
- hope is gone. If I die, my portion and world will be
- uprooted."
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- 768
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- WHEN they had conversed, the vizier made a banquet
- befitting them; he played the host, gave fair gifts to the
- fair guest, he enriched his attendants, both youths and
- greybeards. They parted; the knight went home as the sun
- was setting.
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- 769
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- THE form of the sun-faced Avt'handil was like that of
- a cypress; he bound up a hundred thousand pieces of gold,
- three hundred pieces of gold brocade—he was generous
- and open-handed—sixty precious rubies and jacinths, the
- colour of which could not displease. He sent a man to carry
- these presents from him.
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- 770
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- AVT'HANDIL sent a message to the king saying: "How
- can I give or bestow on thee that which befits thee ? What
- return can I think of for the debts I owe thee ? Tf I survive
- I shall die for thee; I shall make myself thy slave. I shall
- repay love with love, with a like weight."
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- 771
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- HOW can I tell his peerlessness, valour, and praise him!
- He was a man fitting and worthy even of such a deed. Thus
- should service be, as much as lies in one's power. When
- a man is in trouble then needs he brother and kinsman.
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