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- The Testament of
Avt'handil to King Rostevan When He Stole Away
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- 786
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- HE sat down to write the will, thus piteously inditing:
- "0 king! I have stolen away in quest of him I must seek.
- I cannot remain sundered from him, the kindler of my fires.
- Forgive me and be merciful to me like as God.
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- 787
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- "I KNOW that in the end thou wilt not blame this my
- resolve. A wise man cannot abandon his beloved friend.
- I venture to remind thee of the teaching of a certain
- discourse made by Plato: 'Falsehood and two-facedness
- injure the body and the soul.'
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- 788
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- "SINCE lying is the source of all misfortunes, why should
- I abandon my friend, a brother by a stronger tie than born
- brotherhood ? I will not do it! What avails me the
- knowledge of the philosophizing of the philosophers!
- Therefore are we taught that we may be united with the
- choir of the heavenly hosts.
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- 789
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- "THOU hast read how the apostles write of love, how
- they speak of it, how they praise it; know thou it and
- harmonize thy knowledge: 'love exalteth us,' this is as it
- were the tinkling burden of their song; if thou conceive not
- this how can I convince ignorant men ?
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- 790
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- "HE who created me, even He gave me power to overcome
- foes; He who is the invisible Might, the Aid of every
- earthly being, who fixes the bounds of the finite, sits
- immortal God as God, He can in one moment change a
- hundred into one and one into a hundred.
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- 791
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- "WHAT God wills not will not become fact. The violet
- fades, the rose withers, if they cannot gaze on the sunbeams;
- every lovely thing is desirable for the eye to gaze on. How
- can I endure the lack of him, or how can life please me!
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- 792
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- "HOWEVER angry thou art, forgive me that I have not
- kept your command; enthralled, I had no power to fulfil it.
- No! To go was the remedy for the flaming of my furnaces.
- Wherever I may be, what matters it to me if I have but my
- freewill ?
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- 793
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- "SADNESS avails thee not, nor useless flow of tears. The
- deed which is inevitably decreed above cannot be avoided.
- It is a law with men that they should struggle and suffer
- woes, and no creature of flesh hath power to thwart
- Providence.
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- 794
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- "WHATEVER God has predestined to come to pass upon
- me let it be fulfilled, and when I return my heart will no
- longer remain ashes. May I see you also joyful in majesty
- and manifold wealth. What I can do for him is my glory,
- and this is sufficient booty for me.
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- 795
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- "0 KING, this is my decision. Slay me! if anyone can
- disapprove! 0 king, can it be that my going grieves thee!
- I cannot be false, I cannot do a cowardly deed; he would
- shame me when we meet face to face in that eternity
- whereto we both shall come.
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- 796
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- "MINDFULNESS of a friend ne'er doeth us harm.
- I despise the man who is shameless, false and treacherous.
- I cannot be false; I cannot do it for a mighty king. What is
- worse than a hesitant, tardy-going man!
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- 797
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- "WHAT is worse than a man in the fight with a frowning
- face, shirking, affrighted and thinking of death! In what is
- a cowardly man better than a woman weaving a web! It is
- better to get glory than all goods!
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- 798
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- "A NARROW road cannot keep back Death, nor a rocky
- one; by him all are levelled, weak and strong-hearted; in
- the end the earth unites in one place youth and greybeard.
- Better a glorious death than shameful life!
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- 799
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- "AND now I fear, 0 king, to make this request to you:
- mistaken, mistaken is he who expects not death
- momentarily; it which unites us all comes alike by day and
- by night. If I see thee not living, life will be fleeting for me.
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- 800
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- "IF the passing world, the destroyer of all, destroy me,
- an orphan I shall die travelling, unmourned by parent, nor
- will those who brought me up, nor the friend whom I trust,
- enshroud me; then indeed will your merciful, tender heart
- have pity on me.
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- 801
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- "I HAVE countless possessions weighed by none: Give the
- treasure to the poor, free the slaves; enrich every orphan
- without means; they will be grateful to me, remember me,
- bless me; I shall be thought of.
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- 802
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- . "WHATEVER is not worthy of being kept in your
- treasury, give part to build orphan homes, part to build
- bridges; be not sparing in the spending of mine estate for
- me; T have none save thee to quench the hot fires.
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- 803
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- "HENCEFORTH thou shalt learn no more news from me,
- herewith I commit my soul to thee; this letter tells thee so,
- without flattering thee; the devil's deeds shall not seduce
- my soul, it will prevail; forgive me and pray for me; what
- can be exacted from me dead ?
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- 804
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- "I ENTREAT thee, 0 king, for Shermadin my chosen
- servant. This year he hath an added day1 of grief.
Comfort
- him with the favour I was wont to favour him withal; make
- not the tears to flow from his eyes welling with blood.
- 1
In Georgian naki, the extra day in leap year.
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- 805
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- "MY testament is ended, written by mine own hand.
- Behold, mine upbringer, I have parted from thee; I am gone
- away with maddened heart. Let not the sovereigns be
- grieved for my sake, be ye not clad in gloom, but be ye in
- your sovereignty feared by foes."
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- 806
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- WHEN he had made an end of writing he gave the will to
- Shermadin. He said: "Convey this wisely to the king; none
- can excel thee in any service." He embraced him and wept
- over him bloody-hued tears.
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